The last few days we’ve been at home with a poorly little boy who needed lots of love and attention. We’ve been up and down these last three nights, sometimes hourly, tending to him as he fights off a bit of a virus. Though I can’t claim to enjoy waking up 10 times a night or having a poorly child, I have, in my heart, simply felt lucky to have the opportunity to hold him close.
I’m seeing life through a different lens this week.
These last few days I’ve been so conscious of my good fortune in having those I love close to hand. I’ve enjoyed just being with them, hanging out on the sofa watching whatever shows the poorly one requested. Today we’re starting to see the back of the sickness but I’m still inclined to keep this mood going.
I’ve spent a lot of time in thought these last days, as I know so many have, reflecting on all sorts of things. The main realisation I’ve had is that I really enjoy being with my boys each day. That probably sounds obvious, but recently I’ve been feeling a bit weary and ready for a break. Now I see that the break isn’t from my family, from my life, but from the wider world.
So today has just been a gentle day of early baths, tidying, laundry, eating meals. Nothing earth shattering and yet it seems like the warmest kind of bliss. I made up a big batch of ‘snow’ for the boys to play with and sat in the kitchen listening too their crazy giggles, knowing they were ignoring my ‘don’t get it everywhere’ rule and not caring a jot.
I know truly and with sincerity of heart, that this is all I could ever dream of in life. These people, every day, finding our way. I’m grateful, so intensely grateful, for the chance.